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Welcome to my Blog. I set this up after realising I spend far too much time updating my Facebook status and living in hope that one day a celeb will reply to one of my Tweets. So if you like reality TV, makeup, short story ideas, magazines, chocolate and the occasional gym class, then this is the blog for you. Now get that tea brewing, grab a couple of digestives and let yourself escape into my world...you never know, you might like it here!

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Thursday, 12 April 2012

Lost

Another possible extract from another possible book…

She was home, and for the first time in a long time she felt safe. Putting her key in the front door, the lock turned but it wouldn’t open. She laughed because she could never get the hang of that door because her Dad refused to pay to get a locksmith to fix it. In fact he refused to pay out for anything if he thought he could do it himself. She forced the key back out, picked up her bag and walked around the back of the house calling out to her family, but there was no reply. She opened the gate and saw the sun lounger in the garden with a magazine and iPod underneath it and a can of lager and glass of coke on the patio table. She smiled because she knew there would be Vodka hidden in that coke!

The back door was open so she walked in calling out again, but still no reply. She thought it was a bit odd that nobody was around, but that quickly passed when she saw her sister, Emma, sitting in the lounge staring blankly at the television.

 “Bloody hell, inside watching TV while the sun’s out? What’s wrong with you?” But Emma didn’t even flinch. “For God’s Sake sis, are you still pissed off with me?” Again, no reply. “Look, I’m sorry alright?”

Nothing.

She walked out of the lounge, her heart breaking a little. She obviously hurt her more than she realised. Her mind was already planning things to do to show her how sorry she was. It was only a stupid row over some hair straighteners…

“DAD!” she shouted, walking upstairs. “Where are you?”

She called back to her sister to ask where he was, but was ignored again. “I can’t bloody do anything, can I?” she mumbled.

Once in her bedroom she flung her bag onto the floor before collapsing on her bed. She reached over to put the TV on but something made her stop. She could hear a faint noise, like the sound of someone crying coming from her parent’s room. She crept in, and sitting on the floor with his back against the bed was her dad.

“There you are!” she said with relief in her voice. “I called you but you didn’t reply. I thought you were….” She stopped in her tracks as she walked over to see her Dad with photos sprawled out in front of him, clutching one in his hand.

“I miss you so much” he said.

“Ah Dad, I’m home now, it’s ok” putting her arm around him. “I know it’s been rough lately, but it will get better, I promise”.

“It’s all my fault.”

“No it’s not dad, stop saying that. Life can deal you a bad hand at times, but it’s how you cope with it that makes you. Come on, you told me that!”

“Dad” said a concerned voice from behind them. They both turned around and saw Emma standing there. “You have to stop this. It isn’t your fault”.

“That’s what I’m trying to tell him but he’s not listening to me”.

“Dad, it was an accident…..”

Sophie looked at her Dad and then again at her sister. She was confused. “What do you mean it was an accident?”

There was an uncomfortable silence in the room. “Will somebody tell me what the hell is going on?”

Emma walked over to them and carefully placed the photos back in their box. “They’ve gone Dad. Nothing we can do will bring them back”.

“Ok, you two are freaking me out now. Who’s gone? Who’s not coming ba…?”At that moment, the realisation of what was happening sunk in.

*****

Sophie woke up late forgetting it was Emma’s turn to have the car. They argued over it because she could still make it on time if she had the motor, but her sister refused, throwing a tantrum in for good measure. It spiralled into another boisterous shouting match which resulted in her throwing Emma’s hair straighteners at her, missing her face by a fraction. That was enough for their mum. She walked upstairs screaming at them to stop fighting. She couldn’t take another argument and after a lot of back biting, she eventually agreed to take Sophie to work in the car their Dad had been fixing.

She sat in silence on that journey as her mum moaned, telling her to grow up and start taking responsibility for herself instead of staying out late every night drinking with her mates. She tried to argue back but she could see how upset her mum was.

Looking at her daughter, she sighed, “All I ask is for you to show a little bit more consideration towards us, Sophie…”

 “MUM, WATCH OUT!”

In the second it took for her mums eyes to appear back on the road, there were children screaming as their parents pulled them back onto the kerb from the crossing. The black car that came hurtling towards them spun, screeching ferociously as it tried to swerve out of the way, causing them to jolt off the road spinning 360 degrees mid air. The doors flung open on impact before crashing back down on the pavement landing upside down. The window screen shattered displaying tiny speckles of glass everywhere. Steam was escaping out of the crushed bonnet and the smell of burnt rubber embedded into the road and invading the throats of everyone around them. Their bodies lay motionless as people watched in horror. Blood everywhere. Sophie tried to say something but no words came out. She could hear sirens in the distance getting louder and louder. She attempted to move her head but there was too much pain so she glanced over to her mother who was still strapped in by her seat belt, slumped helplessly like a puppet waiting to come to life. She was covered in blood. People fussed around them both. “Can you hear me?” “What’s your name?” “Don’t worry; the ambulance is on its way”. Sophie froze in fear. Her mother was dead. She screamed, and tears rolled down her cheeks. “It’s ok; you’re going to be ok”.

Those were the last words she remembered. When she woke up, she couldn’t recall what happened. She felt scared and alone and all she wanted was to be at home, and it was a big relief when she walked inside that back door because nothing was making sense, but it didn’t matter because she was home and she would be ok.

***

She looked again at her sister and then at her Dad, panic spreading like a rash all over her face. She picked up the photo her Dad had been clutching onto. It was of Sophie and her mum cuddling each other. So happy, so beautiful.

“No……No” She said, her voice trembling. “Dad? Em? Talk to me. Please?” She was crying hysterically, shaking her Dad, begging him to look at her, but it was as though she wasn’t even there. “NO!” she screamed again. Tears were streaming down her face. “Please, NO! Daddy, Em. It’s me, Sophie. I’m right here. I’m right in front of you!”

But they just sat next to each other huddled together, crying. Holding onto each other so tightly, never wanting to let go.

Sophie backed away, looking at her Father and sister in disbelief. She looked around for her mother, but she couldn’t see her. Where was she? Why wasn’t she there too? A cold chill ran through her body because she realised what had happened. Her mother had died and was taken, but she was left. All the arguments she had with her family. All the partying, the drugs, quitting school. Even wishing she was dead when things weren’t going her way had all come back in a cruel twist of fate. Only this time, there was nobody around to help and make her see just how good her life really was. If only she realised when she was alive, maybe she wouldn’t be stuck in this parallel universe now.

She looked back down at them once more and couldn’t move. She really was alone now.

“Help me” she whispered.

Wednesday, 4 April 2012

Eggstravaganza!

With Easter only days away, dieters everywhere will be uniting in an effort to fight the temptation of chocolate that is haunting every point, syn and calorie we are desperately sticking to on our journey to lose weight.

Walking into a supermarket earlier for the third consecutive day to buy another egg is quickly pushing me into chocolate hell looking at the beautiful array of colourful packaging displayed under torturous offers of “buy 2 for £3” or “buy one, get one free”.  Crème eggs, mini eggs, giant eggs…eggs, eggs, eggs, they’re everywhere!

Now I’m all for indulging in chocolate and to be honest, perhaps a little too much, but there is something about it that I just love! Maybe it’s the endorphins that are released every time we taste it, and although those same hormones are triggered when we are exercising, it seems far more appealing to get that sense of satisfaction from a bar of sugary fat that an hour of cardio vascular torment! I even read an article online recently that said indulging regularly in sweet treats helps to reduce high blood pressure, lowers cholesterol and even prevents tooth decay. Seriously! Maybe I need to remind myself why I am dieting because it seems to me the food that is making me fat, is in fact, benefiting my overall health and wellbeing.   


Temptation is literally staring me in the face!

I know I shouldn’t get fazed by it because it’s Easter, and if you can’t eat chocolate eggs at this time of the year, when can you? But something is still nagging in the back of my mind because all I can think of is how many points I will be using and what affect it will have on the scales at the end of the week. I really should just learn to chill out. It’s like a friend said to me today, “just indulge, but make sure you go the gym the next day and burn it all off”. This is indeed practical advice, but to be honest, I really can’t be bothered to do that either. I mean, who goes to the gym at Easter? That’s like going to the gym at Christmas!  There is of course, the other option of just having a little bit. Maybe just half an egg and saving the rest for another day…oh who am I kidding, that will never happen.

Despite my good efforts of losing weight over the last 6 weeks, it is with total honesty that I say this: My name is Tanya, and I am a chocoholic. I will be eating Easter Eggs this weekend, and I will be enjoying every last bite!

Happy Easter my little bunnies!

Monday, 2 April 2012

These are a few of my favourite things....

  1. Curling up on the sofa with a cuppa and some chocolate watching a movie.
  2. Sleeping in
  3. Singing
  4. Glee
  5. Accessories
  6. Nail varnish
  7. Playing "Draw Free" on my phone
  8. Café latte's
  9. Candles
  10. Cuddles
What are your favourite things?

Thursday, 29 March 2012

Petrol rant!

The title says it all.....

This evening has very much been like every one this week. Got home from work, went to the gym, cooked dinner and settled down to watch some TV, only to remember tonight I need to fill up my car with petrol. If it were any other night, I wouldn’t be worried as I would just give myself extra time before work to do it, but thanks to the clowns in our Government, all drivers in the UK have been forced into panic buying due to an impending fuel strike which hasn’t even been set yet.

I usually fill up at my local supermarket, but walking past there earlier and seeing the queue, I was soon put off. The annoying thing is, I genuinely need to fill up my car and was actually contemplating walking to work tomorrow because of this situation. It was only after talking about it with my housemate that he made me realise at 10pm on a Thursday night, I am probably in a better position to get some without the need of sitting and waiting to fill up, and wasting what petrol I did have left in the meantime.

I have just been to the closest petrol station to my house and was happy to find all 6 pumps were free. I have to admit, I did feel a little smug when I drove in and parked my car but that soon changed when I saw the cost of unleaded: 149.9p per litre. Are you kidding me? I feel like I am being robbed! When the shop keeper told me there were queues from 6am to 8.30pm today, I felt even angrier because I can’t help but think we are being made mugs of, especially after hearing the ridiculously high increase in fuel sales yesterday. I can just picture the big wigs resting back in their chairs and laughing at us right now!

Further to my annoyance at this unnecessary alarm, I was outraged to hear that the Cabinet Minster has advised additional spending by encouraging us to fill up jerrycans as a precaution and store them at home! How irresponsible can you get? I thought these people are meant to be intelligent. I think as a country we need to do a “Lord Sugar” and fire them all!

Part of me hopes there will be a strike now only so we can justify spending more money than has been necessary over the last few days, but something tells me we will soon be hearing the situation has been settled and the panic can now end. Either way, I hope our Prime Minister is ready to answer some questions, because it’s very easy to open a can of worms, but it’s not so easy to close it again!

Tuesday, 27 March 2012

Thank you......

I have been writing this blog since October last year and never intended it to be as popular as it has been. I'm not sure how my number of page views compares to other blogs, but I am so happy with the responses I am getting and would just like to say a very big thank you to everyone who has been reading my posts.

I will be writing more articles over the next few days so please come back and enjoy more of the crazy and random thoughts going round in my head, because without them, I wouldn't be able to write my pieces.

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Happy reading lovlies!

Tanya :-)

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

Let the memory live again

Driving to work last week, I was listening to the Chris Moyle’s show on Radio 1 and Dave Vitty was unexpectedly reading the story of Mr Bump. Happily listening to the tale sent me into a nostalgic bubble, reminiscing about the books I used to read when I was a child from Roald Dahl’s James and the Giant Peach, The Witches and The BFG to The Very Hungry Caterpillar, The Cat in the Hat and The Tale of Peter Rabbit. This has since prompted me to dig out some of those classics and re-read and enjoy them once more.

But it hasn’t stopped there because the books have impelled me to think back to other memories I have as a child. Playing Stony 123 and Queenie Queenie in my street with all my friends, or going into the dens behind our house pretending we were part of Robin Hood’s band of merry men fighting off outlaws passing by on the old train tracks below us. Not forgetting the stalls we used to set up on our front gardens buying and selling items including bikes, toys, games and ice creams with money used from my brother’s Monopoly board game.

Growing up in my street was so much fun. There was always something going on. Camping out in tents in each other’s gardens, playing football and tennis or cherry door knocking! Then there were the times we used to all run to the top of the hill and do a train back down together, some of us on bikes, some on skate boards and the rest on our roller boots. That was before someone, most likely one of the boys, would ambush us with water balloons prompting a massive water fight, and some rather annoyed parents who were unlucky if they got attacked! We also used to have sleepovers where we would stuff ourselves with sweets and chocolates and make indoor tents with blankets and duvets using the pegs off the washing line and then stay up late watching movies and get up early to watch cartoons.

Back then, kids TV was the best. Inspector Gadget, Raggy Dolls, The Racoons, Dogtanian, He-Man, Bananaman, Super Ted, Dungeons and Dragons…the list is endless. Of course being a girl, my favourites were The Care Bears, My Little Pony and Rainbow Brite. I even remember receiving my very own Care Bear with my name on it for my birthday and then my Mum taking me to meet them in my local shopping centre. My Care Bear always had pride of place on my bed alongside my Popples, Pooch and Glow Worm. I still have it today, although it now sits on top of my cupboard rather than on my bed!

Enjoying these memories again over the last week has been lovely. Who would have thought an off the cuff moment on the radio would trigger them but I’m glad it did because it’s been lovely remembering those days. I really hope they continue with story time because let’s face it, once a kid, always a kid!

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

Food for thought

When I was younger I used to love helping my mum bake cakes. Every week she would make a Victoria Sponge or a batch of fairy cakes. She also made tasty apple crumbles and black forest cheesecakes and would use the left over Philadelphia on top of digestive biscuits for us as a treat. The best part was being allowed to try the mixture before it went into the oven, or better still, lick the bowl! Then of course, there was the fun part of mixing food colouring into icing sugar and adding it to the cakes with hundreds and thousands and jelly diamonds.

Even today, I still love to bake, although I don’t do it as much as I should. However, every now and again you will catch me making chocolate cornflake cakes or my Granny’s cheese straws. She has even given me her recipe for Christmas cake, mince pies and coconut ice which I am beginning to master the art of, although the latter still needs a bit of work!

My Granny always bakes. Whenever we visit she has a couple of homemade cakes ready for us. Walking into her house you are instantly hit by that sweet smell and seeing them displayed on the kitchen table always brings a smile to my face. I spent this weekend with her and my Mum and we indulged in her infamous delights, fresh pots of tea and home made marmalade on toast, along with traditional Sunday roast and glasses of pink champagne with more of my family on Mother’s day.

Nothing can take away the warm feeling I get when I am with my family, both near and far. Every time we are together we create another memory to hold on to and savour so when we look back and reminisce, it feels just as special as when it was created.

Without them, life just wouldn’t be the same.