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Welcome to my Blog. I set this up after realising I spend far too much time updating my Facebook status and living in hope that one day a celeb will reply to one of my Tweets. So if you like reality TV, makeup, short story ideas, magazines, chocolate and the occasional gym class, then this is the blog for you. Now get that tea brewing, grab a couple of digestives and let yourself escape into my world...you never know, you might like it here!

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Thursday 5 November 2015

Under the Sea

Shopping for new beauty products is definitely something I love to do so when I was sent a couple of products from The Soap Lagoon I couldn’t help but get a little bit excited about it!
A new local business, set up this year, The Soap Lagoon specialise in ‘Hand-made soapy beauts’ including Deep Ocean Treasure, Shaving whip, Moisturising soap bars and a range of exfoliating products.



After I was sent a couple of exfoliating whips, I couldn’t wait to get sampling them! The first was a Lemon Poppy Whip. As someone who suffers with dry skin, I am always on the lookout for a gentle exfoliator that I can use regularly and if it moisturises at the same time, then even better. This product does just that! Not only is it gentle on my skin, but you also only need a small about because it ‘whips’ up into your skin, mositurising it at the same time. Perfect for me!  The smell of it is amazing, so much so, there is a disclaimer on the packaging that says not to eat it and I can see why!



The second I tried was a Berry Cream Poppy Whip. Again, this is another gentle exfoliator which smells so good and doesn’t feel like I’m hacking away at my skin. The poppy seeds make is kind to your skin and is perfect to use regularly without drying it out.
Both of these whips came in plastic pots with spoons, so much so they looked like ice creams or desserts when I opened them - I loved them straight away – and all the products are made by hand with natural ingredients so they are safe to use and good for the environment too!

I have already recommended these to my friends and family, and with Christmas just around the corner, they would make lovely gifts or stocking fillers!


To find out more about The Soap Lagoon visit them on Facebook or Twitter. They have products suitable for everyone so you never know what treasure you might find!

Wednesday 14 October 2015

Go Fish!

An element of nostalgia hit me today when I was going through the memories on my Facebook page and found the following status update:



The reason why I felt the warmth after reading it is because not only did it take me back to a great night out I had with my friends, but it was also a conversation that prompted me to begin this blog and was the opening piece!

Four years later, I have been lucky to have had some of my writing published, been a runner up in a short story competition, and have attracted over 27,000 page views all achieved through the support of my amazing friends, family and army of Twitter followers!

I have to admit, I never imagined all of this would happen when I first started it, so I want to thank everyone for your continued support, it really does mean so much to me.

If you want to read that opening blog, click here and watch out for a new short story coming when I hit the big 3-0k mark!



Monday 12 October 2015

When tomorrow comes

As an avid X Factor fan, I was gutted to see that Jamie Benkert didn't make it past Bootcamp, but have still watched with anticipation over the last 2 weeks as we have seen Rita Ora and Grimmy battle it out with the audience to get their final groups together in the 6 seat challenge.

Despite Grimmy's poor start to his category, I was cheering at the TV like a true Gogglebox contender as I watched the amazingly talented Che Chesterman and Seann Miley Moore easily gain seats, and was cursing and shouting with just as much passion with the audacity of Mason Noise and his arrogant backlash towards Simon for not allowing his 'art' to get the air time it deserved. To top it off, I was on the verge of heart palpitations when poor Tom Bleasby got swapped and brought back on again after Grimmy realised he'd made the wrong choice. It was all just too much for a girl to handle on her own on a Sunday evening!

I survived though, but tonight I heard, despite the rollercoaster he went through, Tom Bleasby has quit the show due to personal reasons. Taking to twitter he has said "the X Factor is just one path...one that wasn't right for me. I will make music".

I have to hand it to him, it must have been hard to make that decision especially when you are given so much exposure and could potentially go on to great things from such a platform, but if you know in your heart it's not right, you have to follow it, and it shows a lot of strength in doing so.

I don't doubt that something amazing will happen for him, especially with his appearance on the Ellen show last week where he sang live and un-rehearsed with Jessie J! Whether that has had an impact on his decision, I don't know, but judging by the reaction he has had, I don't think on this occasion he needs X Factor. I think he just needs a straight out record deal and he'll be laughing...or maybe singing!

No doubt this weekend's programme will be just as dramatic with the editors showcasing his departure and airing who Grimmy will give a second chance to. Not to mention watching part 2 of the groups fight it out in Cheryl's category, whilst hopefully we see Simon eating a huge slice of humble pie after his disrespectful reaction to finding out he has the over's category. Roll on Sunday!

If you didn't catch Tom on the Ellen show, you can watch it here:



Sunday 13 September 2015

"Hold my Heart"

Every now and again I like to put pen to paper and try my hand at a bit of poetry, and although I have previously shared one or two with you, I was put to the test recently when my best friend, Becky, asked me to write something and read it at her wedding which took place on Friday 11th September.

Being one of her four bridesmaids, I already had an element of responsibility, but when she asked me to do this, I knew I couldn't let her down. Initially I started to write very much as I usually do, but what I wanted to say wasn't flowing and I was suddenly struck with what I feared was writers block!

Realising I was just over thinking it, I took a step back for a while and low and behold, in true Tanya style, the words came to me at the most unexpected and inconvenient time whilst sitting at work one Wednesday afternoon! Quickly scribbling them down (the perks of always carrying around a notepad) I found I had the beginning of what I wanted to say and surprisingly enough, it was in the form of a poem.

After tweaking it here and there, I finally had my reading and with the approval of my sister and an emotional thumbs up from Becky's mum, I knew it must be ok. What I hadn't bargained for when I got up to read it was being overcome with emotion as I was reading it in front of the bride and groom and their guests! I did it though and the response I have had since has been so overwhelming, and most importantly, Becky and her now husband Dan, absolutely loved it. Win-win all round!

So now they have heard it, I thought I would share it with you all here too:


"Hold my Heart" by Tanya Shirley
 
Hold my heart I am here to stay
As we stand together on our special day.
Face to face as we say "I Do"
Hold my heart it's me and you.
 
Hold my heart the pledge we now make
Through the good and bad, we will not break.
Today we are here side by side
Hold my heart forever confide
 
Hold my heart and then take my hand
As you look my way we will understand.
The love we have will always be
Hold my heart for the world to see.
 
Hold my heart a new journey now
The promise we made is our love to avow
Together as one, we align
Hold my heart you heart is mine.




Sunday 6 September 2015

Jamie's got The X Factor

So after a short break from blogging, I find it only fitting to come back to what I love by writing about someone local. Sitting down this afternoon to catch up on last night's X Factor I watched in anticipation waiting for singer Jamie Benkert to audition in front of Simon, Cheryl, Rita and Grimmy for a place at Bootcamp.
 
Any regular readers of mine will know who I am talking about. It was nearly two years ago that I wrote a piece on him after a friend got in touch asking me to do a write up on a charity single he was involved with.
 
Since then I have been watching in the background on Facebook and Twitter and keeping up to date with the singing he has been doing so it was very exciting to see on Friday when he posted to social media that he had auditioned.
 
Seeing the clip of him being compared to Olly Murs did make me chuckle given I had the same thought back then too, and knowing he was an Olly tribute act over the summer, I was intriegued as too how Jamie would be portrayed on the show.Naturally, Simon's mention of the movie Single White Female after his audition set the stage for the producers and editors to portray Jamie as Olly himself!
 
Despite the goulish music and the extensive focus on Jamie's admiration for Olly leading up to him singing, I have to say the boy did good! Starting off with an original song, 'Dance All Night', which again was referenced by Cheryl and Grimmy to Olly's 'Dance with me tonight', Simon asked him to sing his second choice and straight away he entertained the audience with a mash up of Hold On We're Going Home by Drake and Uptown Funk' by Mark Ronson ft Bruno Mars.
 
Thankfully, the judges were impressed and Jamie made it through to Bootcamp with a yes from three of the judges. Although he didn't win over Simon Cowell this time, mainly I think because he appeared somewhat bemused by the whole Olly comparison, I think next time he will. However, it's Nick Grimshaw that will have the final say as he will be mentoring the boys.
 
So get rehursing Jamie because im sure I'm not alone when I say it will be amazing to see you go through to the live shows. Good luck and I will keep my fingers crossed for you!
 
Check out Jamie's audition here:
 
 
 

Wednesday 10 June 2015

Aloe Aloe Aloe

Aloe Vera products have been taking the world by storm recently with the rapid growth and popularity of the Forever Living range that has seen a rise of people setting up their own independent business to promote and sell these goods.  

Founded in 1978 and growing in over 150 countries, it has only really been in the last year or so that I’ve seen a significant increase of people on social media driving these products to its success.

Forever McAloe is one of these independent businesses that has taken on the range and is rapidly going from strength to strength. Run by husband and wife team, James and Olenka McMahon, who started out their venture from their home in Bath, Forever McAloe is proving to be not only growing into a successful venture, but the duo are now helping to develop other people to follow in their footsteps. They have even reached out to others as far Cape Town and the USA!  

The Forever range includes life balance, fitness and weight management, beauty and wellness, animals and home and even make up. All the while, ensure Aloe Vera is the main embodiment of each product.  

But why the sudden interest and what it is about these products that make them so good? Well when I had the opportunity to sample some recently, I was obviously happy to put them to the test and find out for myself what all the fuss was about.  

Here is part 1 of 2 sets of products that I have tried:


Aloe Lips

 
This is without a doubt one of the best lip balms I have ever tried! Made with Jojoba, it not only tastes really nice (no I didn’t eat it!) but it made my dry, cracked lips so soft very quickly! I was a bit apprehensive about this at first because Aloe Vera has an acquired taste but with the added Jojoba, it made using this very pleasant. I was really impressed at how well and quickly it moisturised my lips without them feeling greasy or heavy with product. I will happily purchase this again, and of course it's perfect if you’re on the hunt to kiss a Prince or two! 

 
 
Aloe Heat Lotion 


I admit, I wasn’t sure whether I would ever use this one, mainly because I already have two different varieties of heat lotions in my bathroom cabinet which go unused, however the testing Gods were obviously out in force because I only went and slept awkwardly last week and woke up with horrendous pain in my neck and down my back! Thinking it would get better as the day went on, I found myself buying paracetamol at lunchtime because it wasn’t. It was only when I was at the till that I remembered I had this and as you can imagine, I was gutted I didn’t have it to hand, but as soon as I got home I put it to the test.

Initially, the smell of it wasn’t great, but this is common for these types of lotions so I didn’t let it put me off. It wasn’t long before the heat got to work, and I found myself using it not only for the pain but also to kneed out the knots in the neck too. It wasn’t sticky or greasy and made my skin feel soft afterwards too. Double bonus!  

This is also a good product to use after a long day at the office or if you’re need to relax your muscles and joints after sport.  

Aloe-Jojoba Shampoo and Conditioning Rinse

By sheer coincidence, I was given a bottle of this shampoo and condition around the same time as getting the samples to try so I feel like I’ve really been able to put these to the test. As I have highlighted blonde hair, I’m quite particular about the products I use in my hair, especially as I wash it every day, but I had it on good authority that these were really good products so I was excited to try them out. 

Both are PH balanced and contain Aloe and Jojoba oil which helps to strengthen, moisturise and condition the hair. The shampoo is also a natural alternative to many medicated varieties so I was expecting good things from this.  

Although I haven’t noticed any difference to the colour improvement of my highlights I have noticed a big change in the feel and appearance. I’ve been using this for the last month now and my hair is definitely a lot softer, I haven’t noticed as many split ends, it’s a lot easier to brush through and style especially straight after washing it, and I'm not waking up every morning with a greasy Maine, so happiness all round! My next step is to continue using these products and try and wash my hair every other day instead so watch this space for an update on how that goes.  


Aloe Moisturizing Lotion

This smelt lovely and reminded me of summer. Containing collagen and elastin, this is lanolin free and safe to use on the face, hands and body,.I decided to test it on my very dry elbows, my hands and my shoulders which were a bit dry and flaky.  

I purposely only used a little bit each time as I have previously been told by friends that “less is more” when it comes to this lotion, and they weren’t wrong. I was pleasantly surprised to find that a little really does go a long way and I managed to use the 3.5ml sample pack over 5 days! Definitely 5 stars for this product and I would happily invest in buying more. 

 

Overall, I have been pleasantly surprised with these products and would recommend them. I’m starting to see what all the fuss is about, and am looking forward to trying out another batch next week. Keep an eye out as I will be back with another write up soon!
 

You can find out more about Forever McAloe on Facebook and Twitter or you can visit their website http://forevermcaloe.myforever.biz/ 
 
 
 

 

Sunday 31 May 2015

An interview with Shervin Roohparvar

Shervin Roohparvar (photo: William Callan)
If there's one thing you can always count on when it comes to reality TV it’s the eclectic mix of people that end up on our TV screens. Whether you like the crazy, in-your-face types, the funny ones, or the shy, retiring kind there’s always someone to suit everyone’s taste.  

Last week I had the pleasure of interviewing entrepreneur turned reality TV star Shervin Roohparvar, star of America’s Shahs of Sunset about a group of young Persian-Americans living life and working in Los Angeles whilst keeping up with family demands and cultural traditions. Produced by Ryan Seacrest Productions, the show on Bravo is now into its 4th series and has been taking reality TV by storm stateside.  

Shervin’s down-to-earth and humble character made it easy for me to understand why the producers chose him for the show. Despite the initial concerns about whether it would be the right decision for him, he discussed it at length with his parents, but realised this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity that he couldn’t say no to, and the belief he has in himself and the person he is, meant he had nothing to lose.  

“I’m not someone that’s scared very often or fearful of many things…it was very surreal as I entered a world I was unfamiliar with” 

Making the most out of life and the opportunities that present themselves, Shervin set up his first business venture selling computer parts with a friend whilst at college but soon found himself battling with the decision to carry on his studies to become a doctor or continue with the success he was having down the business route. The latter option has since proven the best as he now owns his own brand of headphones as well as owning exclusive night clubs/bars in LA.  

Despite the struggles he faced in making these decisions, they have helped to shape who he is today. He owes a lot of his success to his parents’ generation who emigrated from Persia to America to create a better life in a country where they didn’t speak the language and weren’t familiar with the culture, and so had to start a new life from scratch. The admiration he has for the hard work they endured from learning a new language and building new careers shows an incredible strength that he very much believes shouldn’t be taken from granted.  

“They’ve taken so many sacrifices and done so much for our generation to have this freedom to be what we want to be and how we want to do things in life that it would be an extreme disgrace to waste it.” 

Listening to him speak so warmly of his parents’ wish for a better future gave me an insight into how grateful he is to them but also how much he looks up and admires what they did, and because of this has adopted these values throughout his own life.  

On asking how he felt about being more popular since featuring in the reality TV show, Shervin said it was very strange to be recognised initially, but found it flattering when people asked him for a photograph or a shout out on social media. Thankfully the reaction he has received has been a positive one and he talked with much fondness about the younger generation reaching out to him for advice which he really enjoys being able to give.  
 

“The most rewarding part is I’ll get a message from a young adult who is about to go to college asking for advice. To be looked at by these people as a role model is very flattering and I enjoy thinking I am helping someone to make a difference with their life.” 
 
 
Photo by William Callan
Asked if he would like to do another reality show, he did say he would like to go back onto Shahs. Despite the initial nerves where his heartbeat could actually be picked up through his microphone, Shervin is now a lot more relaxed about being on the show and would happily go back on if invited. 

“With Shah, what you see is what you get. If you weren’t being yourself you would get called out on in. Nothing is staged and if they felt like you were purposely trying to set something up, they would put you in your place pretty quick and that’s made me respect the show.” 

Devoting a lot of time and energy building up his empire, Shervin is now very much ready to settle down with someone special in his life and be able to share his success with. Talking of coming home to an empty house and how it would be nice to come home to someone who shares the same beliefs that he can look after and love.

In the meantime, while he is on the quest to find love, Shervin is looking forward to some much needed time away in Europe later on in the year where he plans to visit Spain with his brother before heading back to LA to continue working on new projects. 

If there was one thing I did take from this interview it’s that Shervin is a genuine and kind hearted man. He hasn’t let success go to his head and appears extremely level headed so I can see why he made for great reality TV. There definitely needs to be more of him in the world!

Sunday 10 May 2015

Happy birthday to me!

Today is my 35th birthday. Yes....35th! I still can't quite believe it myself given that I still feel like an 18 year old! My body has kindly been reminding me I'm not though: hangovers are worse, tiredness is more apparent, stress is more apparent with my aching and knotty back and staying in on a Saturday night in my PJ's with a cuppa is so much more appealing than putting on my heels and heading to town for a few drinks!

I know, I know, I'm ONLY 35 and should get a grip but there's a part of me that feels a little bit scared that I am this age now. My 'to-do' list isn't getting any shorter and I'm beginning to think I need to fast forward a few things so I can tick them off.

Despite the age anxiety, I can't deny I had an amazing day with my friends and family. A lovely lunch, lots of presents, birthday cake, prosecco, vodka, cuddles with my nephews and a cheeky Jagerbomb thrown in for good measure!

Evening bubble bath done, I am now curled up on the sofa watching the BAFTA'S enjoying a lovely cup of tea and another slice of cake!

If it's your birthday today too then I wish you a very happy one. I hope you have been as blessed as I have with a great day and lots of love from those close to you!

Saturday 18 April 2015

Howard's Way

L-R: Me, Chelsey and Suzy


Last night I headed over to Alexandra Palace with my sister Suzy and friend Chelsey to see Ben Howard on tour. After buying the tickets at the beginning of December, of which my sister's was a Christmas present, the three of us have been patiently waiting for this gig and I can honestly say nothing about the evening disappointed us.


Ben Howard on stage
 Not really knowing what to expect, we hopped onto the W3 bus at Wood Green and turned up at the venue and I was initially taken aback by the incredible views of London. Why I've never been to Ally Pally before, I don't know, but the setting and surrounding was a pleasant surprise and welcome.

Despite the mahoosive queue of people waiting to get in, we didn't hang around in it for long, and we were soon inside soaking up the atmosphere, enjoying rounds of vodka and cider with a few cheeky jager bombs thrown in for good measure!



It really was like no other gig I've experienced. Everyone was so laid back and relaxed. The organisers are obviously absolute pros at what they do. From the prompt food and bar service to the busses transporting us all back to the tube station at the end of the night, it really was a hassle free experience. Even the toilet situation was incredible with hardly any queuing time what so ever...and we all know what a nightmare that can be, don't we girls!


I don't know what the capacity is at the venue, but given it was a sold out gig, there was a lot of people there, however there was plenty of space around us to enjoy it and still be in good viewing of Mr Howard himself. Standing at the side near the front, we happily enjoyed his music along with everyone else there.

Ally Pally is an incredible venue, and I really can't understand why I've never been there before, but I'm definitely going to stay in the loop with future events. As for the gig itself, Ben Howard is an incredible singer and performer. I melt just listening to his album, but hearing him sing live is amazing and such an experience. He didn't disappoint and we were a very happy trio! Suzy, who is the biggest fan out of the three of us, relished in it and seeing how much she enjoyed it and how happy she was to be seeing him live, made my day. I think it's fair to say, I did well with that present!


 
 

Wednesday 11 March 2015

Run Forest Run!

For anyone out there who thinks they're not good enough, talented enough, fit enough or whatever-enough to do something, STOP! On Sunday I took part in my not good enough and completed my very first half marathon at the Milton Keynes festival of running.

You may be forgiven for being a little bit confused here, especially as I have previously written about completing a marathon walk, but let me tell you, the half marathon was SO much harder!

Confused? Well let me explain.

Despite the marathon walk being twice the distance, the challenge this time wasn't so much the number of miles, but more the running. Ironic, don't you think? I've said this before, and I'll say it again, when it comes to sport I'm no athlete, but you can't knock me for trying my best. Running, however was always something I've always told myself I'm not good at despite taking part in the Race for Life - twice!

I took the plunge though after much persuading from some friends and signed up before I gave myself too much time to think about it. Training began, and I'll admit, I could have put more effort into it, but up until the day of the race, I think I was very much in denial. Despite two of my friends dropping out, I decided I was still going to go ahead with it, mainly because I was fundraising for Macmillan and for anyone who knows someone that has suffered with cancer, in the big scheme of things, a 13.1 mile run is nothing in comparison.

On the day I set myself 4 hours to complete it but I said it would be amazing if I complete it in 3.5 hours. The first 4 miles were done in record time at only 57 minutes but by the time I reached mile 7 tears were building up knowing I still had another 6 to go. From then on I struggled despite the support from the marshals, onlookers and my fellow runners. I persevered though, even if I did have to walked a part of the route and I am really pleased to say I completed it in 3 hours, 35 minutes and 7 seconds! I was unbelievably proud of myself. I wasn't the fastest, but I did it and that's what matters.

I wouldn't have been able to do it without the copious amount of support that I received from my friends and family. From all of the lovely messages and generous donations, I really feel blessed and overwhelmed and it's made this experience so much easier to get through. Despite the difficulties I faced during the run, I have proven to myself that you really can do anything you put your mind to, so if you're reading this with doubt in your mind, no matter how big or small, believe and have trust in yourself, because if I can do it, anyone can!


Click here to see how much I have managed to raise!



Thursday 26 February 2015

A Brit of an incident....

Whether you watched the Brit Awards or not last night, you will have no doubt heard all the gossip by now after an unfortunate error of judgement that caused quite an incident on stage...and no, I'm not talking about Kim Kardashian's inability to take a selfie! 

Yes, that's right, I am infact referring to 'that' incident which saw Pop sensation Madonna tumble off stage in a way a child would throw their barbie or action man over their shoulder when having a tantrum!

Despite being in shock at what I saw, I could see it all unravelling before my eyes when I noticed her struggling to untie her cape but I never imagined that it really would happen. Oh and when the music stopped I thought it was all over.

As if I hadn't been cringing enough already what with awful interaction with the celebs presenting awards and Taylor Swift head banging to Kanye's not so family-friendly performance of...hang on, what was it called again? I didn't catch it amongst all the muting!

Madonna handled it in such admirable style though and went on to do a great performance.

I took to Facebook last night and updated my status with a little dedication to her myself. Ive been a fan of hers ever since I was given 'True Blue' on cassette tape so despite a few giggles (sorry!) I think I redeemed myself.

I hadn't planned to put it on here but I've had some great feedback from it so I thought, why not!

In honour of Madonna: (look, I'm a poet and I don't know it! #FacePalm)

Madonna, you weren't such a lucky Star tonight after falling thanks to wearing too much material girl, but it's ok Pappa, don't preach, she lived to tell the secret! I think it's safe to say it's going to be Borderline whether that dancer keeps his job after that error. My theory is he'll be Hung Up for causing all that Commotion in such a Spotlight, but in true style, Madonna, you still went on to Express Yourself. I can't imagine What it feels like for a girl to come back after 20 years for a Celebration only for you to nearly Die another Day. You carried on though and the Music was delivered to all us Beautiful Stangers and that's the Ray of Light we all love about you!

Saturday 21 February 2015

Doof-doof-doof.....

This week the nation came together in unison to find out the answer to the one question we have all been waiting so long to find out: Who killed Lucy?

That's right, BBC1 have enriched our lives with a weeks worth of partially live Eastenders episodes leading up to that fateful moment where Lucy's time of earth came to a tragic end, finally revealing who her murderer was.

It's been the talk of the last 10 months which has seen no end of conspiracy theories come to light, bets and public debates taking place, but on Thursday night, the truth came out and we were all witness to find not only did half of Walford attack Lucy on that fateful night, but the person responsible for ending it all was infact, her half brother, Bobby.

Initially, I was a little bit disappointed when it was revealed, mainly because I literally had money on it being Abi, (imagine my excitement at the end of Monday's episode when Max told her that Lauren knows!) but I think it was more because I didn't want to believe that an innocent 10 year old could do something like that...to his sister. I know, I know, kids do bad things too!

My next thought was how on earth did they get the body from the lounge to the common? Now that is where my brain started ticking over. I knew we'd find out, but all of yesterday I was thinking how gruesome it must have been and even concocted the scene myself which saw Jane putting Lucy's body into bin bags, wrapping her in an old carpet; rushing over to the car lot to steal one of Max's cars while devil child Bobby threatened her to hurry up and keep 'er maaaath shu'! Followed by the struggle to dump her body in the boot of the car, screech off out of the square, look shady as they drive past a few random police cars, then turn off the car lights and slowly roll into the common dumping the body before finding an incinerator to burn the evidence. Finally leaving Jane and Bobby breaking down in each others arms as she and tells him she'll protect 'im and deal with Ian!

It didn't exactly go that way though, however, there were elements to it as we found out on the full live show on Friday (the body in the boot and Jane telling Bobby not to worry!) but I have to admit, of all episodes this week, I was completely taken with Friday's.

Watching the truth unravel was always going to be compelling, but seeing it happen live made it all the more real, and what an episode it was. I sat in utter silence and was in floods of tears by the time the credits came up. Even this morning as I write this, my heart feels sad as I think of Ian's face when he realises the truth. Oh, and that note. Those heart breaking words "I want to tell you how much you mean to me and I want to tell you how much I love you. Don't forget Dad, wake me up". Such cruel irony.

I have to hand it to them though, they pulled it off and I can't wait to see what's going to happen next. Well done Eastenders...you got me!

Saturday 14 February 2015

Happy Valentines Day

I'm writing this post with a lot of love inside me because today is Valentines Day. The day where we can acknowledge how much we love the people in our lives, and also the day where people moan about how annoying it is to be single and how over commercialised it is...something I always get a little bit annoyed with.

I'm single, yet think Valentines Day should be about telling people how much you love them. I know there's the argument that you can do that any day of the year blah blah blah, but when you look at how much evil there is in the world these days, it's nice that for one day we can all publically unite and show that, actually, there can be love too.

So whether you are celebrating with a quiet night in front of the TV, partying in town, a romantic weekend away, doing some DIY, or maybe you're exceeding it all and getting married, I hope you have a lovely Valentines Day.

Have fun, enjoy it, don't be negative, don't get depressed; it's Saturday after all! Oh, and for those who do think it's over commercialised, I have one word for you....Christmas!

Tuesday 10 February 2015

Out and About

It seems my last blog went down really well as I've been receiving some great feedback on my story idea. Lots of comments on both Facebook and Twitter encouraging me to write it in full so have decided I'm going to give it a go. Not sure if it will end up as a short story or a full on novel, but watch this space....

I'm also back on the running now since my virus has finally decided to rid itself from me! I can't tell you what a relief it's been to feel 'normal' again! I'm not sure my legs will agree though as they are feeling very heavy and achy but I'm determined to power through it. They'll thank me when they're looking toned! If anyone has any tips for novice runners I'd really appreciate it. I'm still very much trying to battle through the fear of 'I can't do it' at the moment and although I'm doing it, that thought is very much lingering at the back of my mind.

I guess focus and determination are key...

Wednesday 28 January 2015

To have and to hold?

Another short story idea I thought I'd share. I hope you like it.....

The bride beamed as she gracefully moved around the dance floor. Her svelte figure covered in satin and lace trailed behind her. Long blonde curls fell around her face and past her shoulders. She was an elegance of beauty that everyone admired.

Guests beamed at as she relished in her day, for she had married the man who would look after her for the rest of their lives together.

He watched in awe as the love of his life gracefully swept across the dance floor. He was a lucky man but behind that smile he knew a different story.

He knew she didnt truly love him. Not like the way she loved his best friend. Even though she promised him it was over, he knew they were both still in love, but he refused to let her go. He knew the guilt would eventually eat him up but until that day came he promised he would do anything to keep her by his side even if it meant blackmailing her.

He hated himself for it but it was the only way he could keep her close to him. The threats, the lies. None of it really mattered to him because she was now his. He promised himself he would change as soon as they exchanged vows and today was that day. Today was the start of a new life for him. For them.

But just to be sure, he kept the knife hidden under the bed.....

Monday 12 January 2015

This Girl Can

If there was ever a moment where inspiration was needed, tonight was that moment. Curled up on the sofa after a day of doing very little, I was about to head to bed to get ready for another day of the same tomorrow when I was struck by an advert on TV that I feel compelled to write about.

#ThisGirlCan sees a 90 second video of a group of girls participating in various fitness activities in order to overcome their battles. These are normal every day women who are striving to keep fit regardless of what they look like or what their fitness levels are. 

It a short, but really inspiring advert and it has already taken social media by storm with so many people following and using the hashtag. It is a great way for girls to connect through fitness and just go out there and do their thing. I love it already!

You can also visit the website www.thisgirlcan.co.uk and follow them on Twitter @ThisGirlCanUK

If you haven't seen the ad, or want to see it again, check it out:


Wednesday 7 January 2015

Happy New Year!

Well, it's 7 days into the new year already and what a year it's been! I have had a great first week of 2015 spending time with my friends, partying in London with my family, training for my half marathon, organising hen parties and staying focused on the job hunting which, fingers crossed, is heading in the right direction!

I've decided not to make any resolutions this year, instead I am adopting a very simple mantra: stay happy in everything I do! Even through the challenges, I am going to find the positive and hopefully it will make for a very successful year. So far it's working so lets hope I can continue with it. Already, there are lots of opportunities ahead which I am very excited about. Don't worry, I will endeavor to tell you all about them as soon as I can! 

I hope January is treating you well and in good health. Big hats off to all of those dedicated to doing the Dryathlon. I admire anyone that can be committed to not drinking! I probably shouldn't admit this but I am typing this whilst enjoying a large, chilled glass of wine - multi tasking at its best! 

Maybe I'll give it a go next year, but for now, Cheers!